So many people used to make fun of me when I would make videos. Some said that it was because I had so much time on my hands. They would make me feel stupid for doing the things I loved doing and knew how to do so well, but would later ask me to take pictures of them or help them make a video. Honestly, I wish I never listened. Although I didn’t stop altogether, I would be lying if I said all those things didn’t bother me. Apart from the trolls, life has a way of killing your dreams. I could tell you all the things I want to be. I know all of them. 

Before I started blogging, I remember I used to write in Junior secondary school. The first time I showed someone something I wrote, I overheard them talking about how trashy it was. They were my English teachers. Maybe they didn't know that I heard, but I did. I had a book where I would write poems and stories.  I probably threw it away after crying. I mean, what I wrote probably wasn’t the best but I stopped writing until I discovered it again in my second year in the university.

I was going to write about something entirely different this week but I just found myself going in an entirely different direction. I have an 8 to 5 job. I could write a 10-page article on how I feel about this job and it would be mostly negative. I cried a lot when I first started working there.  I was clueless about a lot of things. I felt so alone a lot of times. I ended up doing things I didn’t enjoy.  On some days I feel like I deserve more. On other days I just tell myself that I am lucky and I should be grateful. I tried to take out time to take pictures or make videos but there was never enough time. These past two weeks have been crazy. I’m exhausted. I just woke up and I have a headache. Pardon my French but I’ve taken the shit out of painkillers. I’m always tired. Today I nearly passed out at the office.

Someone said the only way to enjoy your job is for it to not feel like a job. And the only way to do that is to look for something that’s fun for you to make money. My point is to never let go of the things that make you happy. Life can be dark sometimes and on such days, you need to be able to light yourself up.

PS: I wrote this a week ago. If you could tell me that one thing that you do and you love so much in the comment section, it would be really nice.

I love you 💜